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Oh, Im dialing the phone.letting it ring for hours.pretending to hear your voice
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| | Current Music: | amanda and chrissss having sexxx.... no | | Subject: | okay, okay.... | | Time: | 11:22 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/thinking.gif) contemplative |
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| I've decided to just let things happen.
Not try and force anything.
Even if that means allowing what I want to happen not happen.
Fuck it.
All of it.
I'm tired of being confused.
I'm tired of caring.
It takes suuuuuch a toll on me.
Let the pieces fall where they may.
In the end, I'm sure it will be for the best.
Most things are, right?
This is the sound of settling. | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment   |
| got this from rae-![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) __pixiedustx
(thanks hun :)
You Are 21 Years Old |
21
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
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This is very true.
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got this from whitney darling-goodbyesteven
You are |
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HOT, everything is just dandy.
well, not everything.
Lua happens to be my anthem at the moment.... I wish it wasn't, though. I'd be happier.
Stupid boys... he doesn't even know what he's causing me, either.
Lua-BRIGHT EYES
I know that it is freezin, but I think we have to walk. I keep waving at the taxis; they keep turning their lights off. But Julie knows a party at some actor’s west side loft. Supplies are endless in the evening, by the morning they’ll be gone.
When everything gets lonely I can be my own best friend. I’ll grab a coffee and the paper; have my own conversations, with the sidewalk and the pigeons and my window reflection. The mask I polish in the evening, by the morning looks like shit.
I know you have a heavy heart; I can feel it when we kiss. So many men much stronger than me have thrown their backs out trying to lift it. But me I’m not gamble you can count on me to split. The love I sell you in the evening, by the morning won’t exist.
You’re looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black. You just keep going to the bathroom always say you’ll be right back.
Well it takes one to know one, kid, I think you’ve got it bad. But what’s so easy in the evening, by the morning is such a drag.
I’ve got a flask inside my pocket we can share it on the train. If you promise to stay conscious I will try and do the same. We might die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain. But what was normal in the evening, by the morning seems insane.
And I’m not sure what the trouble was that started all of this. The reasons all have run away but the feeling never did. It’s not something I would recommend, but it is one way to live. Cause what is simple in the moonlight, by the morning never is. What’s so simple in the moonlight, by the morning is so complicated. It was so simple in the moonlight… so simple in the moonlight… so simple in the moonlight. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| They are beautiful and all mine....... I can't even describe how happy I am right now..... I really Really REALLY love Ms. Amanda Marsh.
here is Atticus Finch:
He's the adventurous one. He kinda bullies Holden so I have to keep an eye on them.
and here's my little reserved Holden Caulfield:
he's really shy and gets scurred easily. He's such a little baby :)
They are gorgeous and I love them.
Their daddy is hairless and their mommy is normal, so that's why their hair is curly. Amanda says they will most likely turn a bit "ugly" when they grow older because they aren't full hairless and they will have patches and look like they're sick. But I'll love them just the same. Their fur will always stay soft though. Its so funny how just meeting my children, in five minutes I already saw their personalities. Atticus is tough and brave, Holden is shy and scared. My little ying yang boys.
♥ | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Tegan & Sara- I know I know I know | | Time: | 12:00 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/smile.gif) cheerful |
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| (01) Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
(02) I will then tell you what song/BAND reminds me of you.
(03) Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
(04) Last, I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
(05) Put this in your journal. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| The following is an online conversation I had with one fo my friends who also happens to work with me:
MairaPie : did you get written up?
sublime03_lbc: for what?
MairaPie : victor told liz to write you up on sunday
MairaPie : :(
sublime03_lbc: awwww damn
sublime03_lbc: you serious?
MairaPie : yeah
sublime03_lbc: that fucking suuuuuucks
sublime03_lbc: what does that mean?
MairaPie : and she was all nervous about it cause shes never done it before
sublime03_lbc: what happens?
MairaPie : like 3 strikes kind of deal
sublime03_lbc: ewwwwww
MairaPie : i dont know if she did or not
sublime03_lbc: whatever
sublime03_lbc: Its okay
MairaPie : you still have 2 to go
sublime03_lbc: I wont be there for long anyway
sublime03_lbc: yeah two will last me
MairaPie : i may leave soon
sublime03_lbc: where to?
sublime03_lbc: where would you work?
MairaPie : i may work at fox
MairaPie : in gilroy
sublime03_lbc: NIIIIICE
sublime03_lbc: pays better too
MairaPie : yeah, and ill move up faster than at papas
sublime03_lbc: HELL YEAH
MairaPie : cause its pathetic ive been working there this long and i only make 7.60
sublime03_lbc: yeah, that is really bad
sublime03_lbc: even the managers dont make a lot
MairaPie : exactly
sublime03_lbc: After school gets out I'm moving down south with my sister
sublime03_lbc: Whenever she decides to go
sublime03_lbc: So I'll be gone
MairaPie : oh my
sublime03_lbc: Not like we're gonna work there forever, you know?
MairaPie : im so jealous
sublime03_lbc: aww haha dont be
sublime03_lbc: AHAHAH
sublime03_lbc: you wanna know what too?
sublime03_lbc: I was planning on not working tis saturday either
MairaPie : what
MairaPie : oh my
sublime03_lbc: I'm going to be out of town
sublime03_lbc: I need the day off
MairaPie : oh dear
sublime03_lbc: So I'm going to try and switch with someone
sublime03_lbc: I dunno though
sublime03_lbc: I may not
sublime03_lbc: I doubt anyone will switch with me
MairaPie : when do you work next
sublime03_lbc: thrusday
sublime03_lbc: tomorrow?
MairaPie : complain about not feeling good the whole day
MairaPie : like
MairaPie : a headache
MairaPie : or nasea
MairaPie : or something
sublime03_lbc: OoOoOOoOooo
sublime03_lbc: And I work friday too
MairaPie : and then call in sick
MairaPie : complain then too
sublime03_lbc: I'll play it up
MairaPie : so then saturday itll be believable
sublime03_lbc: Yes yes
sublime03_lbc: thank you
MairaPie : thats the way the pro's do it
sublime03_lbc: hahah and you my dear are a pro
MairaPie : oh stop *blushes* | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Today was a very bad day. I stepped in a bunch of puddles at school today, and I was wearing my converse because:
1)have no other shoes, and
2)converse are the choice of poor people.
My counselor FINALLY called me in to change my classes, then the ass tells me I can't switch into easy classes like being a teacher's aid because of "school standards" or some bull equally as lame.
But i did switch into a class my friend has.
That was kinda nice.
but now I have to wait another 2 days before I can switch out of my math class because he STILL has not called my teacher to confirm her approval.
Way to do your fucking job.
So I went to work at 5, and it just sucked because I was sick, and tired, and hungry. And to top it off they made me close.
And you can't survive off of pizza toppings. That ain't dinner. So I made myself a salad.
Then i came home tired, sick, but no longer hungry in the hope of being able to talk to my lovely people online and read some good boysex, but my fucking sister(a.k.a the leech) comes to use the computer. So I couldn't do my h.w. or talk or read. That just fucking iced my cake.
The big fucking cherry was having a mental break down due to the fact that I was tired and sick, and even worse. The mental break down happened in front of my mom. So I freaked her out again and made her depressed with my feelings of self-loathing and inadequacy. It's bad enough one of us feels like shit, but it's fucking useless and selfish for me to drag her into my fucked up world. That just made me feel worse x a billion.
But I am finally taking that much needed trip to the doctor. I've had the idea that I have serious stomach problems for over two years. I think it's either a stomach ulcer or Maybe Chrone's. I have issues with my digestion. My stomach always feels uncomfortable.
Part of me wishes it is something to that affect just so I can finally know what's wrong. But the other part doesn't want to have to face what the problems that would mean for me in the future.
I don't know.
I don't know much of anything. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | If there is at least one person in your life who you consider a close friend, and who you would not have met without being part of an online fandom, post this sentence in your journal. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I had a really bizarre dream last night.
I dreamt that Paul McCartney died. And there were no more Beatles left, they were all dead. Then everybody stopped and said "wait..... what about Ringo? Isn't he still alive?"
They always forget about Ringo. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| I just got off of AIM with Whitney(goodbyesteven), and it was hilarious. She was a wee bit tipsydrunk.
So I told her I would save the convo, so she could see it and remember, 'cause she'd most likely forget. So... here it is for everyone's enjoyment:
kill smile blue: godnight
headxautomatic: good night
headxautomatic: I wanna talk a little more
headxautomatic: just five
headxautomatic: minutes
kill smile blue: oay
headxautomatic: Did u go to all your classes?
kill smile blue: i went ot every single class i had this week
kill smile blue: i;mso prudn
kill smile blue: proud
headxautomatic: YAY WHITNEY
headxautomatic: I'M SO PROUD OF YOU TOO
kill smile blue: beacause i want you to talk to me
headxautomatic: I WANT to talk to you
kill smile blue: ansteand of not talk to me
headxautomatic: Its fine as long as you go
headxautomatic: then it'll be all good
kill smile blue: i did go
headxautomatic: good for you, makes me happy
kill smile blue: me too
headxautomatic: So whats going on today?
kill smile blue: and ihae an isea for a christma sotry
kill smile blue: today or yestrfsy?
headxautomatic: OOOOO
headxautomatic: today
kill smile blue: um casye's coning ove to dye mty hair
kill smile blue: i thinkg
headxautomatic: hmmm
kill smile blue: and maube drinkc sone
kill smile blue: een thogh se's edgew
headxautomatic: really.more?
kill smile blue: i have ex's on ym hands rigfnt now adn that;s makeiunf me laug
headxautomatic: Hun, you might as well sleep
headxautomatic: AHAHA
kill smile blue: naah
headxautomatic: How IRONIC
kill smile blue: its ajoke
headxautomatic: A drunk with X's on their hands
headxautomatic: I know
kill smile blue: haha
headxautomatic: but its funny
headxautomatic: i'm saving this conversation
kill smile blue: oay
kill smile blue: sow me tomreow
headxautomatic: so you can see all your misspellings
headxautomatic: Okay
kill smile blue: so i can remeember
headxautomatic: TRUST, I willl
kill smile blue: haahna
headxautomatic: haha, IF you remember
kill smile blue: becase i on't tjink i well
headxautomatic: I dont think so either
kill smile blue: :-))))00000
headxautomatic: But now she really is getting mad so, g'night
kill smile blue: i ade a chrstas list on y jornal and one was a plane ticket ot sclaidforna
kill smile blue: californa
headxautomatic: awww
kill smile blue: s i can see goy
kill smile blue: you
headxautomatic: : D
kill smile blue: ":-)
headxautomatic: makes me feel special
kill smile blue: you are secial
headxautomatic: awww
headxautomatic: no
kill smile blue: my lovely
headxautomatic: but I love you
kill smile blue: yess
kill smile blue: i lvoe yoy too
headxautomatic: and i HAVE to say goodnight, i dont wanna
headxautomatic: but, yes
kill smile blue: moe than tou swill ever nw
headxautomatic: mommy gets angry
headxautomatic: AWWW
kill smile blue: OKAY TALK TS TOY LAER
headxautomatic: OKAY
headxautomatic: love you, night
kill smile blue: <22
kill smile blue: <#
kill smile blue: <3
kill smile blue: hah
kill smile blue: be
headxautomatic: ahaha
kill smile blue: bye
headxautomatic: bye
I love that girl..... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| BRAND MUTHA' FUCKIN' NEW MADE THE COVER OF AP..........
I COULDN'T BE HAPPIER, AND CAN NOT SEARCH MY BRAIN FOR A MORE DESERVING BAND.
I lost me breath when I saw it
God Bless them. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| GOD, PLEASE MAKE JOHN KERRY & JOHN EDWARDS WIN!!!!!
Thank you...
On another note. When I was cleaning the bathroom at work today, I dropped the spray bottle with cleaning solution.... DUN DUN DUN!
INSIDE THE TOILET!!!
The whole time I was reaching for it I kept telling myself, "The toilet is a clean place, the toilet is a clean place, the toilte is a clean place..."
It was icky :[ | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
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Oh, Im dialing the phone.letting it ring for hours.pretending to hear your voice
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